I looked over my last post and it got me thinking again. I started thinking about the difference in "Living in the moment" and "Living in the future" and of course the always fun "Living in the past" and how there must possibly be a third option, something more, another alternative. I for the most, have always lived in the future. I worry about tomorrows problems, or relish in tomorrows possible succeses rather than what is happening in front of me. Or what is happening now. I've met a select few who do live in the moment, who do seem to always be absorbed by what is happening now, but recently I have also realized that these people never stay in one place for to long. Their minds wander, their ideas shift; they move from one thing to the next faster than anyone else, and that in itself is enough of a turn off to avoid living in the moment entirely. But living in the future isn't all that good either... It adds unneeded stress, tension, and problems and drags them out longer than they should be. So like I said, I was thinking about this "new" option, or if one even exist at all. I think I came to a good conclusion.
The new option isn't any solitary option at all; actually it is a mixed hybrid of everything I talked about earlier. We are human beings, we are diverse, we've figured out how to wrap our minds around some of the most complicating subjects, and I think the most successful of us have figured out how to wrap their minds around this.. Or at least the happiest of us. You have to be mentally diverse. You have to figure out how to not only live in the future and in the past, but also to live in the moment. Not any solitary option is the right option.
Now I know what I have to do, but I have no idea how to do it......
In my other thoughts:
I might aswel continue writing now that I've started.
Whats on my mind? I think its either too much to conjure, or too little to even scrape anything off the bottom of the barrel. No, theres something. There's always something. Lets talk finances, life, maturing, aging and moving on.
For me there have been no sudden fundamental changes in m lifestyle, but rather long, drawn out major changes that came about so slow and naturally I was hardly even capable of acknowledging them in the first place. Last year at this time I was a 17 year old high school student with no bank account, no car, no job, a 10 O'clock curfew who still sat around and played video games in his upstairs room at mom and dads house. Now, a year later I'm an 18 year old partially graduated senior with a car, job, almost 10,000 saved and a plan for the future. Its as if my life has spun 360 degrees on me in the last 365 days. Yet strangely enough it almost feels like nothing has changed, it feels like im still in the same old me; and thats the subtle slip.... The clay like molding that reality has on my soul is so maliable its hard to keep up with its constant pace.. I have to wonder though, are all of your lives moving like mine? Or have they ever moved like mine at points in time? Look at yourself now, and then look at yourself a year ago. What has changed? Ask yourself that question and then try and look ahead, guess where you'll be in another year.... And there is a difference between where you want to be in a year, and where you think you'll actually be in a year... Its good to be ahead of the game, but be careful you dont get ahead of yourself:p
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