Day 1 may 27 2013

Day 1 of 90 day transformation

Stick to your word

I only post here when my memories are forced back into my head:/

You gave all my stuff back today. Well through Ross at least. I was thankful for it, but it still hurt to get back gifts that I had bought you. It's not a good feeling, being erased from someone's life... I wish I was capable of completely forgetting. Or do I?

I hope you stick to your word and we can still be friends. Because I miss you in that regard. I miss your face.

I'm still haunted by your memories... Every time I think I've gotten over it, moved on, forgotten about you I always remember.. Something always draws you back.

Only time can fix this, even though I know I'll always care about you. Never can be severed a connection once so strong.

Life

I used to think I had too much time to myself. Now I realize that I don't have enough.... I really need to take it easy. I've really been doing, thinking and acting way too much. I need to slow down and be careful. I know you only live once, but you only die once too.

What's on my mind?
I need to sell my car
Get a new job
Done smoking
Done drinking
Start exercising
Still miss her

Well...

Well...
Since I've been back it's been a real whirlwind of changes and emotions. I've quit my job and sold my car, ive started fresh.. But even through the thick and thin I still miss her. I can't help it, but what really doesn't help is the fact that she bailed on our friendship, because only was she a girlfriend, but a good friend too. So you can assume why I feel like shit:/

Either way there isn't anything more that I can do...